“how can you live without all the answers?”

i just woke up from a dream in which i was at what i think was a birthday party for my unborn niece. in my dream people kept coming to the party and handing their babies to me, and i was struggling to hold three at once but they kept slipping, and while i was carrying them they got even smaller and so i had them in some contraption (not dissimilar to a  cup carrier from dunkin donuts) and i had a cigarette in the center of it, and i stepped out onto a deck with it and realized that they shouldn’t have cigarettes so close to their mouths and eyes while they were so fragile and still developing (they were about the size of fetuses now) and i frantically picked up the cigarette and realized i’d gotten ashes on one of the babies noses and i wiped it off but my finger was too big to get it all off of something so small, and i began to panic and think about what would happen if the baby grew up to be blind or deformed and led a terrible life and while panicking the mom of that baby was talking to me (i don’t know whether she saw or not) but i was too busy freaking out in my head to listen. all i remember is her laughing and saying  ”how can you live without all the answers?” and i said “if i knew that i’d have all the answers”